Time really flies

And no i dont mean throwing a clock out the window to see if it flies. I mean the time that has passed and can never be reclaimed back. I'll be 21 this August and it never occurred to me that i was already in my twenties. Before i know it i'll be in my 30s. I dread to think of the time when i'll be chasing time and cutting up sagging parts of my body and sewing it back into my body. hehe just marvellous. No i have not been living in denial but i certainly do not act my age; a child at heart, a rebel without a cause, a clown at times, still indulge in the good old tete-a-tete about the insanely hot Shawn Ashmore and Alex Fong. Just today morning a close friend of mine commented on my pictures; how different i looked compared to when i was at college. That was about 3 years ago and to think i looked that different; and yes Colin how can you not recognise me! I was pretty miffed when the same friend told me that i looked mature now compared to few years back. When i was 18 i wanted to be 21 but now i really want to go back to my teens. Don't people always say that girls look their best during their teens?(17/18) Seventeen! The magazine where only teens grace their covers? Its all about the teens these days. Teens rule the world now and its sad to know that im no longer part of the glamorous group. sigh. Time does fly but im enjoying every bit of it now. I do feel that this is part of life; i've had my bite of the cheesecake and now its time to move on to the other stuff. Oh well!

life is good, life is fair, life is just..and yet


Everyone is tired of me crooning over my weight gain but theres nothing i can do about it. Im just damn depressed lately because of my weight gain; self esteem way low and im really not in a very good mood to talk to anybody lately. So yes i admit i have been eating tremendously lot lately and im trying to blame it on the cold weather which probably slowed down my metabolic rate; either that or my apetite has become insanely monstrous. I used to not worry about my food intake and know that my weight will still be around the OK threshold. Its still okay now but i cant bring myself to accept the fact that im not skinny anymore. I have curves now and i dont well really like it. Mummy insists that i was being anal about it and that i look OK now because i was haggard before. Now i look into the mirror and cringe at the pudge that is practically protruding out of my low waist. arghh i cant take it..and at the rate im going i might as well fall into an eating disorder. I hate the pressure from being a girl; its like i cant even have a piece of mind when it comes to eating. Its always about this affecting your waist line and this that'll make you look pudgy. What is the world getting to; skinny is the new black. I love food; food is good and hence i do eat a lot. But everytime i put sin food into my mouth theres always this tinge of guilt and the haunting thought that it will increase my waistline. So now im praying everyday that my fats will disappear into thin air when i wake up the next morning. Im so depressed now its crazy..someone give me an aspirin.

a lil' retail therapy and love

I was feeling so crappy lately; i was working hard and i really needed to de-stress. So i finally i went to Selfridges to get my speedy 30. weee damn happy now. I dun understand why they had to fold my bag and i didnt even get a box. When i got mine at KL i had a box..odd. Maybe because they sell so fast like Vincci shoes that they cant even be bothered to give you a bag.

Then i went to NARS counter and got my eyebrow pencil hehee. 13.50pounds..even more ex than chanel which is 13pounds. But i like NARS cosmetics a lot so i got it eventhough i know that cosmetics is morbidly overpriced here. 2 items in a day..and ive been trying to restrain myself from shopping. So i didnt bother to walk into the clothes shops since the sales are over now. Went to chinatown to have lunch, ordered too much and overate. I had some seafood crispy noodles yums and 'sin yau choy sum' which is so weird because back home i wont even eat choy sum but here im dying to eat them.

Sometimes i think i take things for granted to the point of hurting those around me. Too granted in fact. I throw tantrums too often and take my temper out at the people i love most. I guess sometimes you just dont realise all the wonderful things around you till its gone. Now im learning to appreciate and feel blessed for who i am today. I have always felt insecure in one way or the other; more when i was young but as i grew older i felt more confident about myself. Its so funny how the people around you can really influence and change you to another person. I like it a lot and i love all the people around me now who have left a pawprint in my life. I heart you all!

And then there are the idiots who just wont leave me alove. I mean why must they keep popping their head into people's lives. Barbaric. I absolutely hate it when people start to pinpoint the things i do and keep telling me what to do like their my parents; or even worse. Even worse when it comes from a guy. And i thought that guys usually dont butt their heads into other people's business; if you are a girl i totally understand mann cos girls gossip here and there anyway. IDIOTS. And here i am being miss nice for not retaliating and just listening to your lecture. Perhaps the best way is to just tell them off but sometimes i cant bring myself to do that and in the end i am the one who feels depressed. Its difficult living in this society.

A bucketful of surprises

Happy happy chinese new year my fellow nomads. Its been quite awhile since i updated and i apologise for my disappearing act. Those living with me will know how i have been shutting myself up inside my room lately. So im almost done with everything today; just in time for holiday shopping! It feels so darn good to do everything properly and then reward yourself a lil'. Impeccable.

Anyway my parents promised me my LV speedy monogram canvas. weee im stoked. Sometimes i feel so spoilt in a way but i have been good so i should be rewarded ritee. So i'll make a trip down to either Bond street, Selfridges or Harrods to get it. That brings me to the topic that Harrods is sooo overrated. I dun see the big hype with it. Selfridges outshines it any minute please. So anyway i have been having my eye on either the speedy 25 or 30. Funnily the 25 made me look big so i might just get the 30.

Which one should i get?

Since today is the first day of chinese new year and i have no sweet cookies i think i'll go eat krispy kremes. my godd im goin to get diabetes eating those donuts but funnily i dun feel its that sweet anymore.

I just had a weird dream about the hot channel [v] VJ Dom yesterday. my goddd now only i realised how hot he is. sweat sweat.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

Today someone told me that my true love is 'written in the stars'. So i stepped out and looked into the brightly lit sky. I was disappointed to find no stars in the sky tonight.

So today is Valentine's day but im still halfway through international law. and like what june said dun go fighting with couples in the cinemas. cinemas will be packed with couples today im sure. i imagine valentine's day to be something more glamourous than this. obviously this is not venice or rome where everything is so soap drama-ish and winter sonata-ish that makes it look like you're watching a movie. hmm so there were no peddlars selling roses on the streets, nobody selling handmade chocolates and cookies.

So i have given up many times before and im not about to commit myself anytime soon. i enjoy singlehood and having fun at the moment unlike some of my friends who are giddily in love but at the same time having sackloads of problems here and there. im not sayin its bad to fall in love. its a wonderful thing but right now its not for me. so how do you tell if someone truly likes you for who you are. theres also the other who wouldnt confess his feelings to you and theres another whom you're head over heels with but not sure if he feels the same way. im wayyyy too tired to play this game anymore. i love the whole no strings attached thing right now whereby i dun feel the need to tie myself down.

on a happier note mummy went out last weekend and bought this for me.

aww loveee you mummy.

Valentine's day

Valentine's day; a happy happy day because it rekindles all the happy times you had and it just makes you fall in love all over again. what have you guys planned for the girls?are you girls stoked and excited about celebrating this special day? a chance to relive the very first day you gave your heart away and the very first day you felt the tingle. let me know of your ideas and plans. =)

love,

aretha

Chinese new year

im so stressing this few days; with 3 assignments and one presentation up my sleeve right now i didnt think i could handle it. stress level is wayy exceeding the critical point hence the boost of apetite and increase in waistline as well i might add. i seriously dunno why you people have a problem with me and my weight issues. i mean everybody has weight issues; even someone as gorgeous as kate moss has weight issues. also i have a very bad habit of throwing tantrums whenever i feel that i have increased in size. it doesnt help that i have a very bad habit of munching snacks every one hour interval. studying gets boring; the room is boring; the weather is boring; the snow is boring. thank heavens jack frost isnt nipping on my nose anymore but the rain wouldnt go.



chinese new year is just around the corner(this sunday). im stoked! but sad as this is the first time im celebrating it away from home. i mean,i have never celebrated it away from home. i always woke up on the first day looking forward to my first red packet from my parents and then my grandparents and eventually all the weird relatives i will meet. depending on how you put it chinese new year festivals can be fun and it can be awful too. the fun part is that i get to dress up all nicely, earn lotsa money, get sackloads of compliments from people and sometimes getting dissed. if all of a sudden your weight skyrockets you get dissed for being fat(behind your back literally) in front of you and you can just make out the things they are whispering to your parents. then theres the awful smirk on their faces indirectly saying that their daughters are thinner and hotter than you. Idiots.



of course theres also the food and all the goodies. if im lucky there might also be prawn crackers. i will down 3-4 cans of fizzy drinks a day and go back to school not able to fit into my uniforms. those were the good old days mann. where 'pressure' wasnt even in my vocabulary. pressure whatttt? if luck is well on my side i'll probably earn a few quid as well to buy that new pair of shoes.

then theres the pre chinese new year shopping which sadly i wun be able to do this year. i would go around the whole of KL just to buy a few tops, bottoms and shoes. it was even more fun when i was a kid and mummy would bring me to buy those lovely lacey dresses and matching hats and stockings. how i miss being a kid; where everything was stress-free and all i could think about was eating cotton candy.


mann how i miss KL..the land of char kway teo and hakka tai pou meen.

mummy daddy danis i love you..happy chinese new year.

♥
aretha

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let it snow let it snow let it snow

today was freaking cold and naturally it snowed. all the big hype bout snow and i thought today was only a sleet.

im aware that these pictures look crappy but it was really early in the morning.

on the way to class. i spotted some 'mou liu' ppl making snowman.

i still dun understand why these people keep drinking these elderflower and rose teas. not only it smells bad it pollutes the whole freaking room. shytt i just felt like vomiting and i had to concentrate in class too.

thanks mummy. it'll keep me warm during the cold winter nights teehee.

and because we're allowed to indulge in vanity.

my new Roxy top and Diesel skirt.

Tommy hilfiger top and diesel skirt.

retro cheongsam. its mummy's!

let the snow go away please..i cant take the cold anymore.
on a brighter note, cny's comin! it'll be like the milkyway at chinatown except that noone gets mugged at the milkyway.

back to international law assignment.

toodles dahlings.

Jyy mei's 21st



i love parties. just makes me feel so damn good to know that im still 20. i'll be 21 in a few months time and im stoked that i'll be able to celebrate it at the comfort of my home. as always nothing beats mummy's homemade marble cake and cookies. here i am studying my head off the past few days. so hectic OMG i can just dieee. i got back my equity written work and i was so stoked when my tutor told me that my mark was really good. 65%. weee im so damn happy. equity's always been my favourite subject and i was really expecting a good mark anyway. 3 written assignments to be handed in before easter and one constitutional presentation. sackloads of books to be read. then im flying home easter teehee. but right now i think i need an aspirin.

unpredictable english weather

i remembered checking the weather forecast before stepping out today and since i was so determined to wear my new university hoodie i didnt bother about the temperature today. shytt the moment i stepped out i could blow puffs of smoke as if im sishaaing. okay since im not exactly the que sera sera girl i continued to walk teehee. then it wasnt that bad when the sun went up.

so i tried cooking omelette today and it turned out fine.

it tastes much better than it looks okay. the fact that the picture looks a bit dodgy is due to the fact of the bad lighting. so heres my recipe(courtesy of Rasa Malaysia):

2 Large free range eggs
1 teaspoon oyster sauce
3 drops fish sauce
2 dashes of black pepper powder
1/4 teaspoon of sesame oil
1 teaspoon of shaoxing wine
1/2 red onion
5 shrimps
1 stalk scallion

teehee it was yummy. im so proud of myself. pls check out other recipes by Rasa Malaysia as well! their awesome.

on a sadder note my urban decay eyebrow pencil broke 5 times yesterday. then desmond came to the rescue and we watched the new movie 'blood diamond' in his room. leonardo dicaprio rocks my friggin socks! pardon me i had no idea he was THAT sexy okay.

Leo Dicaprio in Titanic(1997). Scrawny, clean cut, long hair, boring. I wouldnt even waste my time watching his movies even if he begged me to. I would give the tickets away to people i dont like.

In Blood Diamond (2006). Shytt nosebleed already. And how i wish i was that girl haha.

So anyway it was quite a good show and worth a watch only if you have nothing better to do and want to ogle a hot hunky guy.

ciao bellas!